The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: He leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name' sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: For thou art with me; Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies; Thou annointest my head with oil; My cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever.
Unfortunately we always turn to GOD when there is no more hope, and we hit rock bottom...well I never thought that I would ever see this part of me...and I haven't in a very long time, but it seems that I just cant stay happy when I turn the "available" button...
I simply ruin everything and ... and everyone that I love, and in the end they all hate me in their own way even if they don't say it ...
at this point I really hate my all "dazzling and enticing" musician life...because I simply make sacrifices after sacrifices and in the end, as I found the hard way, there's no one there to share my hopes, love and not last my achievements.
I never thought that i would fall in love after all the failures that I have had in this department (and there have been quite a few...or more) but this last one had...the thing, the spark, that all lovely chemistry...and I singlehandedly managed to kill it, and drag other along with it ... and last night I just wished I could just die (and the worse part is that this time I really meant it)
When we allow God our shepherd to guide us, we have contentment. When we choose to sin, however, we go our own way and cannot blame God for the environment we create for ourselves (but we surely try to). Our shepherd knows the "green pastures" and "quiet waters" that will restore us. We will reach these places only by following him obediently. Rebelling against the shepherd's leading is actually rebelling against our own best interests. We must remember this the next time we re tempted to go our own way rather than the shepherd's way.
Death casts a frightening shadow over us because we are entirely helpless in its presence. We can struggle with other enemies -- pain, suffering, disease, injury, love -- but strength and courage cannot overcome death. It has the final word. Only one person can walk with us through death's dark valley and bring us safely to the other side -- the God of life, our shepherd. Because life is uncertain, we should follow this shepherd who offers us eternal comfort.
" and the single reason I'm writing this here is because no one actually reads this stuff, and even if they did I couldn't care less "
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